ito ang unang entry ko sa kwentong tambay… punong-puno ng lungkot, pagduda at indecision. umalis ako ng pilipinas pagkatapos ng labindalawang taon na pagtatrabaho. umalis ako upang mabayaran ang bahay at para makapag-ipon. sinimulan ko itong blog na ito sa unang buwan ng pagdating ko dito sa singapore. ang dahilan ng pagsusulat ay simple lamang: upang maibsan ang pag-iisa at pag-aalala.
Category Archives: MYSELF
My Twice Daily Temperature Readings
wala namang extra special na nangyari sa akin papasok sa office ngayong umaga. ah except na may umutot sa aircon bus. tanginangbahutalaga pre! ang bantot bantot! pag pinatagal pa niya yon ng hanggang hapon, baka mag-invade nang mga amerikanong cowboy dito sa singapore, due to chemical weapons of mass destruction.
INSTRUMENT ENGINEER
nung araw, may nagtanong sa aking kaibigan kung ano ang trabaho ko. sabi ko – “instrument engineer”. sabi niya sa akin: “marunong ka bang gumawa ng gitara?”. hehehe… simula noon di ko na nilalagay ang “instrument” doon sa engineer pag may nagtatanong.
sinasabi ko na lang – “engineer” po ako. pag may namilit kung anong klaseng engineer, sasabihin ko: “systems engineer”. pag tinanong pa ulit kung anong system, ang sagot ko: “automation and controls”. pag nagpursige pa sa tanong na, ano ang ino-automate, idadagdag ko: “mga process sa factory at planta”. pag tinanong kung anong klaseng process, sagot ko: “temperature, flow, pressure, pH, level, etc.”. eh, isa pang tanong, ano ang kino-control. tugon ko: “mga motor, valves, heating elements, etc”.
aaaaaahhhh…. (mag-iisip ng matagal) sabay bigkas: ano na nga ulit ginagawa mo?
MAHILIG AKO SA COMICS
simula pagkabata, nahiligan ko nang magbasa ng mga comics. naalala ko pa nung araw, pupunta kaming “downtown” (avenida or sta. cruz para sa mga bagets) ng daddy ko, para lang bumili ng mga comics. batman at superman ang paborito ko. naalala ko pa ang daddy ko, nakasimangot siya pag nag-lambing akong bumaba sa sta. cruz dahil napaka-hirap sumakay ng jeep doon dahil maraming tao (yung kanta ni ryan cayabyab na limang dipang tao, tutuo yon!). pero dahil ako si bunso, pinagbibigyan niya ako parati. kaya every month ay may comics ako!natigil ito nang umalis siya dahil may nakilala siyang ibang chickababes. medyo naghirap ang buhay namin at nawalan ako ng pambili ng comics at siyempre naging abala ako sa mga ibang bagay (like growing up fast).
MGA KINAIINISAN
george w bush’s smirk, mga pangalan na nilalagyan ng “h” (katulad ng jhune, dhanny, jhoey, jhim, jhay, jhet, mayron pa nga akong kilalang piph), tunog ng baril ni agent X44 Tony Falcon, tunog ng suntok ng mga pelikulang pinoy, people who say “at the end of the day” all the time, allergic reactions to seafood, tunog ng stirofoam pag pinisil, tunog ng kinaskas na kuko sa blackboard, war, alikabok, the term “weapons of mass destruction”, sales people who always say “absolutely”, people who don’t take a bath everyday, anghit, people who don’t change their shirts everyday, tropical heat, people with anghit who don’t take a bath and don’t change their shirts everyday at kasabay mong maglakad in the tropical heat, cnn’s jim clancey’s reporting, monday afternoons, NAIA, the term “liberating the iraqi people”, jeepney fumes, standing on a bus going home, cruise missles, pelikulang bumbay, stale coffee, tomahawk missles, january 2, ping lacson, tessie aquino ureta, pimples, powdered orange juice, elevator music, kenny-g’s music, elevator playing kenny-g’s music, donald rumsfeld’s squint, funeral parlors, hospitals, hospital morgues, cold showers, nagtataeng ballpen, nagtataeng ballpen na nakalagay sa bulsa ng puting polo shirt, lapis na bale, disco music, rap music, loud bar music, loud rap music played in a bar, non-functioning remote control, scientific calculators that are not casio, automatic watches that stop in the middle of the night, smelly farts that are not mine, come to think of it – any kind of fart that did not come from my asshole, “bawal umihi dito” signs (ang mahole, bogbog), sunglasses na tabingi pag sinuot mo, yellow-orange shirts, pink pants for men, pantalon na bitin, lalaki na naka yellow-orange shirt na may ternong pink pants na bitin, lawlaw na shorts, tsinelas na luma, loud preachers inside a bus (PRAISE THE GOD!), el shaddai, amerikana ni brother mike, brother mike, good friday, american war propaganda, train stations in india, being thirsty, LBM, smelly hair, ugly american speeches, tinapay na may amag, mainit na coke, soft boiled egg na sobrang soft, CNN reporters na pumipikit-pikit pag nagrereport, sign pen na walang tinta, CD na tumatalon, abstract painting na binebenta sa bangketa sa quiapo, palenkeng maputik, cell phones ringing inside theatres, sappy love song ring tones, sappy love song ringtones ringing inside theatres, loud text message ringtones, mcdo hamburgers na may chii sauce, taxes, ringing phones at 2 o clock in the morning, traffic jams, fast changing traffic lights, war councils, tapilok, somebody wearing turtle neck sweaters in manila, somebody wearing leather jackets in manila, somebody wearing leather jackets over tutleneck sweaters in manila, the term “decisive force”, censorship, self righteous people, self righteous censors, names i can’t pronounce, people calling me “david”, riding in a car that’s been left baking in an open parking lot in manila at 12 o clock noon, pentel pen na malapit nang maubusan ng tinta, the disco song entitled “zodiac”, low batt cellphone right when you need it, underpowered cars, stars on 45 music, stars on 45 music being played inside buses, stars on 45 being played inside a bus when a preacher suddenly shouts “PRAISE THE LORD” while you are a few seconds from finally taking a nap, funeral wreathes, lumang pera, kahit anong pelikula ni steven segal (except yung kasama niya si idol kong tommy lee jones), ang mukha ni prime minister john howard ng australia, “operation iraqi freedom”…
…AND, the most kinaiinisang bagay-bagay as of late: the term “shock and awe”.
NOT IN MY NAME
the united nations daw risk being a footnote in history if they do not agree to the us and uk’s terms to wage war in iraq. damn, such fucking arrogance. kaya maraming naiinis sa kanila eh. porke sila ang pinakamalakas na bansa sa mundo, akala nila pwede na nilang i-bully lahat ng mga maliliit na bansa.
WHY DO BAD THINGS HAPPEN?
why do bad things happen to good people? a question asked in larry king live today, in relation to the shuttle tragedy. why indeed? i’ve asked the same question this week in relation to my sister’s illness. i really don’t have any answer. i always tell myself that shit happens and life is unfair and not to take it personally and that we just do what we got to do.
better said than done: i do take it personally and look up to the heavens and cry in anguish… and hold HIM (pointing upwards) accountable. i work my butt off being a good person and demand “quid pro quo”. in short, i ask the all knowing not to play around with the game of life…my life (and the life of the people i love), that is.
hehehe… sabi nga ng mga taga singapore: “don’t play-play” “. laro na nga, nilalaro mo pa.
KABAYU-KABAYUHAN
PAG-IBIG, PAGMAMAHAL
ano ba ang pag-ibig at pagmamahal kundi pagpapatuloy na pagpapahiwatig ng pagbigay ng iyong sarili sa mahal mo…
bakit ko ba ito nabanggit? wala lang, pinakikinggan ko kasi ako ang “what to listen to on a rainy saturday morning” mp3 playlist ko at tumutugtog ang idol kong si clapton… galing sa backless cd (that was released in 1978) ang kantang “tell me that you love me”. yung lyrics kasi eh tungkol sa isang lalaking KSP (kulang sa pansin).
WHEN THE DOG BITES
sinigang na baboy na may taba, patis na may sili at mainit na kanin…tunog ng golf ball pag tumama sa sweetspot ng driver…kanta ni jacksone browne na tumutugtog sa car stereo habang papauwi ka sa gabi na medyo umuulan…january saturday morning na medyo malamig, ikaw ay nasa bahay, may kape, dyaryo at yosi…sa loob ng eroplano malapit nang maglanding sa naia…san mig light with pepper steak, kumpletong barkada…chicken pork adobo, kamatis, itlog na maalat at fried rice nasa dahon ng saging…akap ni misis sa gabing madilim sa kwartong nakabukas ang aircon…
…these are a few of my favorite things
